December 25th, Christmas day.
A day which usually I count down the days to, where I get an excited feeling in the pit of my stomach, a day I know I will spend with all my loved ones.
This year was different.
2011 had brought to me a whole new variety of life changing experiences. Some good, some not so. Knowing that this christmas would mean some of my loved ones or rather one of my loved ones not being there was killing me. I look back on all my previous christmas's and not ever could I imagine them not being there, so this year was going to hit me hard.
However, it did turn out they did make an appearance but it was just not the same. Forgiveness is a funny thing. The good book says's one should "forgive and forget". But what if you cant forgive? What if you cant forget? What if someone crosses that line, the line where you no longer can trust them and loose all respect for them?
It's hard.
I love them, my god I love them very much. Christmas connotes love, joyfullness, family. So with the feeling of christmas lingering in the air, it was hard to stay angry at a certain someone. But now christmas is coming to an end... what now? How am I suppose to feel?
New years is ahead, a new year a new start. Let's hope 2012 will bring more postive news rather than the pain and hurt 2011 brought. I'm not sayin this whole year has all been doom and gloom. Starting University has been AMAZING. Would recommend anyone to go to Uni even with the rise of student fee's. Also the fact my brother and his fiance having a beautiful baby girl Francine - so now I'm proud Aunty Imogen. Then of course there experience of going to see Rihanna live :D She was soooooo gooood! Was not expecting her to be as good as she was. Rather raunchy though;)Not forgetting to mention I was an extra in the up and coming new Brad Pitt film "World War Z" - that was just the BEST experience. Early mornings, longs days and plenty of waiting around; the first day I did it I remember saying to my Mum I dont think I could do another day. But I did, and met some amazing people through it - plenty of interesting individuals with whom I still keep in contact with.
Even though I know this may not be read by many or even anyone at all, but I shall end this post with a question...
Should a person forgive and forget? Or is it just easier to forgive and forget?
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